I fell in love ,
& I broke it .

♥LunaAphrodite.
I sing, i dance, i go crazy. :D
whatever.

Written on : Monday, October 1, 2012, 1:59 PM

Looking back at the old pictures and videos we took , i can't help but to recall the times when i thought we would never ever be separated .
Right now I'm just trying to remember how it felt to be happy .. nothing .
I could only remember the countless nights i cried myself to sleep , the pain i had to bear when i locked myself into that small dark room you have unlocked me from in my heart.
All the while it might have just been my wishful thinking, like a princess in a fairytale, hoping for a prince to sweep me off my feet and live happily ever after.
This is reality ,
I don't see "happily ever after" anymore .
So fuck that.
Im standing here alone trying to comprehend what has happened , and everything that is not going to come back, including you .
I wish i gave less of a fuck.

Having myself banging on the walls trying to rip the sorrow out,
& maybe get the demon that's been torturing me off of myself,
I just can't.
Continue forcing that smile on my face.
Continue trying to find that happy back in someone else and put it into me.
Because i can't take this crazy anymore.
Stop knocking on my door you demon.
I can't hear you.
I don't wanna hear you.
Fuck off.
And take the agony with you , if you don't mind
I dont wanna run away and bang into the pain that shows up out of no where.
Put me in a place where I can see myself smiling ,
Put me in a place where I can feel free.
Put me somewhere where I can love again.
I don't wanna be chained down by sadness and anger,
People around me don't like to see me sad.
Go away , find someone else to haunt.