I fell in love ,
& I broke it .
♥LunaAphrodite.
I sing, i dance, i go crazy. :D
whatever.
Written on : Wednesday, November 3, 2010, 5:23 AM
for the past sixteen years .what have you done for me .?
Wash my clothes .?
bring me to school .?
if im not wrong , these are the only good things you did .
according to grandma ,
you went to work when i was a baby and she took care of me .
You beat me like fuck for nothing, or over my small bro even when he's in the wrong .
then call me a bad example .
you beat me up cause i didn't write my ABC's fast enough when i was in K2 .
how do you wan a k2 kid , to copy down her 2o words spelling 5 times , in less than ten minutes .?
I got top 3 in class for three consecutive years since primary school .
You never said you were proud of me .
you said that i wasn't good enough cause i didn't get first for every subject .
ever since p4 , i gave up on my studies .
then i get scolded and beat up when i don't get As .
alrights .
when i get injured , you've always laughed at me .
i've never cried when i get injured myself ,
even if they hurt more than how you beat me .
Never .
you've never encouraged me or complimented me in anything .
when i performed for anything for my singing , music ,dance.
you've always said that these are ordinary things and that they won't give me a future because im not good at them .
when i got into art's school ,
you didn't say anything .
Everyday i come home late from school ,
i get either canned or scolded by you .
that's also okay .
when im not in a good mood ,
you cant even tell the difference .
when i got kicked out ,
i have to hear all those bullshit from you like :
im stupid ,
im not hardworking ,
im useless ,
what the fuck .!?
i just got kicked out and you have to put me down even more .
alrights .
my repeat year results were not really good during the end of the year ,
but at the beginning ,
i had to relearn EVERYTHING .
and i got A1s for almost everything .
you said i got them cause im a repeat student .
relationships affected me ,
my grades dropped .
you dun even know the reason .
and you fucking Screamed at me and threatened me in different ways like i cannot go out and stuff .
now ,
i passed sec3 .
Did you say anything .?
Oh , wait .
you did .
I didn't get good enough results .
alrights .
Im stupid .
and when ever people compliment me about my looks or my talents ,
you give the black face and said those were traits from you .
please .
you're different from me .
when grandma said that i cook better than you ,
you weren't happy as well .
fuckyou .
why can't i be better than you .?
You jealous .?
Fuck you .
really .
You dun even know anything about me .
simple things like my likes and dislikes ,
when im down ,
you dun even know la .
fuck you .
you dun deserve to be my mum .
and you can say you know me for sixteen years .
well ,
You've knew my name for sixteen years .
You've seen me for sixteen years .
but ,
you dun know no shit bout me .
you're not my mum .
you're not even close to a friend .
im sixteen .
i can cook and wash for myself .
i don't need you
so dun gimme attitude .
You try to whack me for no reason again .
i'll treat you like how i treat strangers ,
fight back .
i dun care if i get more injured than you .
but,
Im fighting back no matter what ,
and im fighting back without any hesitations .
i can promise you