I fell in love ,
& I broke it .
♥LunaAphrodite.
I sing, i dance, i go crazy. :D
whatever.
Written on : Monday, April 12, 2010, 5:52 AM
today stuff turns out kinda bad.didnt meet paul after band cause i went to meet qiang instead,
cause he waited for me for my bad finish . :D
sorry.
currently,
not wanting a date.
eps the ones that could lead to a bgr.
i "helped" kieran today,
dun needa know how i helped.
and he turned out,
rather.
disappointing.
or disappointed.
maybe both.
:D
qiang is so short. :D
shorter than me 1/2 head
hahaha
i keep making fun of him
he told me what his ring means when he changes the bigger one to the other hand.
i really wish he dun get into anything with anyone now.
cause he look rather pissed when he knew i cried.
so i lied to him that i didnt.
:D
he dunno i lie to him cause he dun even know my blog :D
slacked awhile then went home.
am i really a flirt?
you're really not the only one crying
you're not easy for me to forget.
but i really have to go if i wanna be happy.
the days, i waited for you to try to make me feel that way again.
but seems like even months wouldn't let you take me away.
you always say that it hurts for you to see me with another guy.
but it wouldn't hurt you to know that im not happy.
do you really love me?
or do you just really want me to be with you?
i guess its the second choice.
you cant breathe properly,
but i have no air to breathe in.
im the only one causing the hurt,
cause you're the one suffering,
but you're not the only one.
im done explaining to you.
cause i dun need to explain to you what i want for my life.
i wanted to patch back,
but if we broke up again,
wouldn't it hurt more?
im already crashing.
but all i want is you to be,
safe,
unhurt,
happy.
but i cant achieve that.
i cant without doing harm to myself.
you think that it feels good for me to have many guys after me..
cause i'd be gaining instead of losing.
unlike you.
please,
you really do not know me.
im only a disappointment to you.
im unfaithful to you.
im have a heart to make you hurt and sad.
i dun care about how much you gave up for me,
or how much i made you give up just to be with me.
im sorry that i only can cause sadness into your life.
guess what,
no one's here to catch my tears when it falls,
they're falling for you.
no one's here to gimme a hug when im sad or cold,
i don't let anyone into my heart anymore.
no one's gonna make fun of you or bitch about you,
you're too much of a nice guy and everyone loves you.
no one's gonna harm you,
cause i don't let them do it.
you just didn't know.
but now you know.
i just want a simple thing from you.
i don't want love anymore,
cause its useless and it fades away in time and obsession overpowers it like nothing.
i just want,
your understanding.