I fell in love ,
& I broke it .

♥LunaAphrodite.
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whatever.

Written on : Tuesday, March 16, 2010, 9:06 PM

all i wanted was to be happy.
and to be happy.
i will hurt someone else.
that's not what i want,
that's not the kind of happiness i wanted at all.
i cant find the true meaning of being happy.
i wished someone could help me.
at the time where all i wanted was to be with you,
you pushed me away from time to time,
frequently much.
and when i already given up,
i tried not to hurt you.
i tried.
but i ended up feeling all the stress,
and ended up letting you hurt me.
when i fought for what i want,
i got betrayed by my feelings for you.
they were still there.
and i didnt wanted to go,
but i knew you counldn't hold on anymore,
even though you said you would.
everyone told you that i was just playing with your feelings.
just playing.
they told you to get away from me,
you didnt want to.
you said you love. me.
look at what i've done.
you shouldn't have fell for me in the first place.
i shouldn't have fell for you either.
maybe you should really just take it as i was playing with your feelings.
i wan, just playing.
im still childish.
im immature.
im just a kid finding someone who's more mature than me,
so that he understands,
so that he really can comfort,
so that he can protect,
me.
im selfish.
im really really selfish.
you know why?
cause i cant let my feelings get in the way anymore.
i just cant.
my head hurts alot when im stressed or upset.
but i just cant believe you could just sit there i watch as i suffer.
i just you thought i was just acting it up.
i cant believe i found comfort in you.
understanding.
and love.
and then when i realised that it wasn't there anymore.
it was too late.
i hope you understand why i left.
i cant hold on anymore.
my eyes are dry now.
while my cheeks are soft and slightly moisturised.
colours that i once coloured aren't as bright anymore.
the wind isn't refreshing, it's just plain freezing.
the sun wont warm me up,
only hugs do.
and life isn't that much life-ly anymore.
its just the fears of a person being carried on day by day.